Hold on.

How do I explain it?

I can't.
It's this fragile little thing and I feel like if I breathe too hard, it'll break.
Shatter.  

Sometimes, I want to live in this moment forever.

That way, I'll know and I can stop being a mess.
I can stop trying to decide because it's taking a toll on me.

My brain hurts.
No, my heart hurts.
No, I don't know anymore.

Sometimes, I feel like you know me better than I know me.

And that scares me.

To-do.

So I organized my thoughts while I showered today and I would like to add some items to my to-do list.

1) Go to Scotland/ Ireland.
2) Be in a flash mob.
3) Go to Australia.
4) Go to Italy and France again.
5) Go to Eastern Europe.

Also, after I showered, I was towel-drying my hair and I rubbed my ear by accident and my earring fell out. I couldn't see without my glasses/ contacts but I heard it fall and bounce around on the floor.

Couldn't find it after I put my glasses back on.

Conclusion: I lost my earring.

That is all.

PS. I love the people I work with.

Breather.

Sometimes you forget what life is all about
and then something happens.

- your favourite song comes on the radio
- you make friends with a stranger in a doctor's waiting room
- you laugh at something funny
- you make someone else laugh
- you help an old lady cross the street
- you have a heart-to-heart
- you re-strengthen your ties with someone you love
- someone tells you, "thank you" for something - anything

and you remember.

S2


... Today was a good day.