Why?

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Do you ever take a step back from your life and examine it?
I mean, truly examine it? ... And you wonder how you got there or here?

I did that recently. I know how I got here and I know why. I just don't think this is where I wanted to be or where I want to be. I took a detour on my life plan.

It's not a bad thing. Every decision that I have ever made brought me to where I am today and to who I am today. I don't have many regrets. If I have regrets now, I know they won't be regrets when I look back in 10 years and see what types of decisions I made... and how they've shaped me as a person.

I feel like decisions, life experiences - they shape us. Not the actual decisions and experiences... but how you decide to deal with them - whether they make you stronger, funnier, smarter, or kinder, they change you.

They made me.

I would be a different person if any of the decisions I made would have been different.

When you think about it, it's funny. Even if it didn't shape you as a person - even the smallest decisions that you make - ordering from Mcdonald's instead of Swiss Chalet, buying one top instead of another... would have or could have affected someone else's life.

Life is about making choices - they teach you that from a young age - to separate right from wrong and so on and so forth. They just don't tell you why these choices are important. I wish I had known earlier.

20/20 hindsight right? Well, I may not love where I am now. But I know who I am and I can see where I want to be.

I'm going to fight to get there.